“He’s horrible. He makes me miserable and its so boring and unfulfilling being with him. He’s not a good man. He wasn’t before me and he won’t be after me. I don’t take it personally that he hates me. He hates everyone.” Indenial
I’m trying to realize that this is a lesson and not the end of me. This experience is something I had to go through to wake up. Wake up from a lifetime of abuse, putting myself last, selling myself out and putting up with things no person should ever have to endure. I’m trying to find the empathy for myself and see that I deserve the good things life has to offer.
I won’t kid you…it isn’t easy, fun, simple or without an incredibly high price. But am I worth it? Am I worth the effort it takes to regain my life, my sanity, my joy, my hope and my dreams?
I’m still deciding.