Lying in bed and wishing that I had a solution…a quick and easy fix. Unfortunately, I knew getting away from him would be neither quick nor easy. I escaped with my life, for which I’m grateful and my sanity, which I now cherish in a way I never did before. He was driving me insane at a slow, determined pace. I have seen this compared to a frog and a pot of water. If you drop a frog in to boiling water, it will jump out and save itself. If you put a frog in to a pot of cold water and bring the water slowly to a boil, the frog will remain in the pot and cook to death. So it was for me…if dear hubby had shown his “crazy” right from the start, I would have run. But, since he waited and gradually made life more and more intolerable for me, I just kept dancing faster to stay one step ahead of him. Sick and twisted, if you really stop and think about it.
So tonight I hate him – for putting me and my children through so much and more yet to come, I fear.